Am I The Only One?

[godhelpme]

Am I the only one here that has a problem with porn?

[bigjohn]

i never thout it was any big deal till i came here but now i realise how bad it is. after i have read about it and all problms with it now i hate it.

[peachy]

Hey godhelpme! I don't have a problem with porn, but I am here to talk to if you need to!
I am an addict as well. I just have a different addiction. You tend to be too hard on yourself I've noticed. Don't be so mean to you girl!

[gardener]

Yeah i got a problem with porn too, I think setfree HAD a problem with it, as well as beloved, maybe you can get somemore advice from them, on how to deal with it. I really don't feel in a position to give any advice, but I know God can heal anything, this goes double for an addiction like this.

[godhelpme]

Thank God I'm not alone. I really would appreciate any advice I can get, especially since I may loose my husband if I do it again. I don't want to do it anymore but I feel so drawn to it. It has become such a habit. Its true that old habits are hard to break. HELP!

[setfree]

No you are not the only one. I use to have a problem, but I have been totally setfree from it.

The biggest part of why I got involved in p*rn to start with, was I held all my pain inside of me. I NEVER talked to anyone about my pain. I believed that nobody cared what I had to say. After growing up in a home, where no one cared I applied that to everyone including my wife. During our marriage, she has said some things that hurt my feelings when it shouldn't have. I was never been willing to open up, because of my childhood. After years of being afraid of intimacy I realized that I was molested as a child. My life started unfolding in the seams. I know that I was involved in p*rn for several reasons.

1. I was holding anger toward my wife, so I wanted to get back at her.

2. I was afraid of s*x (intimacy).

3. I believed lies from the devil. That all my pain would go away, and that every man does it.

4. I would be significant. I would mean something.

The funny thing is, that with p*rn you get exactly the opposite of what I just listed. Sure you may feel good for a few minutes, but then afterwards you feel guilty. I have been clean for a long time now, but I still feel guilty for what I have done. I am still angry for the pain I have inflicted on my wife.

In order to move beyond this behavior, you have to realize that everything that it brings is destructive. That nothing about it is real. It is counterfit for love. I will add some sciptures that helped me understand this behavior later, I must go to work now!

Setfree

[godhelpme]

I get you, setfree. I think porn is a good way to build up walls. I isolate myself with it. I didn't intend for it to be that way but that is what it became. Its like for me, I became anti- social. Well, I talk as if I haven't been using it for a long time, but its like I was hiding from my own life. Was it like that for anyone else? Or is it like that for anyone else?

[bigjohn]

yep. wow. i learn somethin new all the time. i never knew why i was feelin so far away from other folks.